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Sunday, September 14, 2008

a prayer


A brief back story:
ST. CATHERINE OF SIENA'S PATRON SAINT
St. Catherine is a the patron saint of Europe, firefighters, against fire, bodily ills, illness, miscarriages, nurses, people ridiculed for their piety, against sexual temptation and sick people. St. Catherine suffered much sickness during her lifetime, and so her patronage of sick people and illness is apparent. Her patronage of firefighters has an interesting history: During her ecstasies, St. Catherine, at times fell into fires, so transported was she from her surroundings; however, her skin and clothes remained untouched by the flames. She is also the patron saint of miscarriages, nurses, nursing services and, people ridiculed for their piety.


With this said i guess i owe an explanation:
Well on Aug 20th Michael an I found out we were expecting again! with a due date of May 5th, how appropriate for me right?
Well we had our first u/s on Sept 4th and everything looked good, still too ear;y to see a baby but all was measuring to accordance, we had another u/s scheduled for sept 12th, well the doctor only saw a sac and usually by this point (6weeks) you should be able to see a baby possibly a HB, the sac was empty,BUT the doctor said the sac shape was also oval which means I could be earlier than we though and its still too soon to see a baby, or i have a blighted ovum( click for a more concrete explanation if you like, basically it means the sac formed at some point the baby formed too but something wasn't right and my body re-absorbed the baby and only the sac remains. (think of the sac as a bubble where inside it the baby forms.) Its harder for your body to figure out the pg is over and therefore you still have symptoms but no baby. I guess the only good thing about this is I won't need surgery to remove the sac only a shot and my body will do the rest. Bad news...well this would be our third loss...i guess i am a freak after all huh.
The doctor had me get b/w to check beta levels again to see if they are where they should be with a 4-5wk pg, if they are another round of betas will be done Monday to see if they are still doubling if not well we know the outcome.
As of right now though we are in limbo, not really knowing if we are still pg or not.
So all we can do is pray:


Humble Virgin and Doctor of the Church, in thirty-three years you achieved great perfection and became the counselor of Popes. You know the temptations of mothers today as well as the dangers that await unborn infants. Intercede for me that I may avoid miscarriage and bring forth a healthy baby who will become a true child of God. Also pray for all mothers, that they may not resort to abortion but help bring a new life into the world.
Amen.

5 comments:

Wifezzilla said...
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Wifezzilla said...

and Viv, I'm thinking positive thoughts for you that it was just too early to see anything, and your next appointment lets you see the baby more clearly.

i wish i had something more thoughtful or meaningful to say, all i can say is that it has nothing to do with any "plan" or any sort of cliche people usually say. whatever happens will happen, and knowing you're a strong person (even though you shouldn't have to go through this stress) is just proof that you and your husband will get through this and you have an excellent marriage that works. that's a lot more than many other people could say.


good luck to you, and thanks again for the prayer.

Amy (TheGiggleWorm) said...

I am so sorry that you are in limbo. I have been praying for a good outcome for you.

{{HUGS}}

Fit & Fierce Mama said...

You are in my thoughts and prayers-I think you're doing a good job of staying positive and that's really important. ((hugs))

Jess said...

Thank you so much for sharing this Vivan! I was honestly wondering if there was a saint for m/c and I completely forgot about it until now. With that being said I will be thinking and praying for you as well! I'm so sorry you are in limbo. Please know I'm here for you! :::HUGS:::