I honestly thought i was doing ok with the whole m/c thing and finally being able to let go where i would have been in terms of how many weeks pg.
That was until this afternoon, my cell phone rang with a number i didn't recognize but it wasn't 800 so i picked up. It was a place called Peek-a-womb, they do 3D u/s and can tell you your baby's sex if you want. I thought it would be a great anivversary gift to MH to see his baby. Well here is how the conversation went.
"Hi, I'd like to confirm your 3D u/s for this saturday at 11am to find out your baby's gender."
"uhmm no i called your office on my way to my D&C to cancel back in Feb"
"i'm sorry how do you mean? you won't make it then? would you like to re-schedule?"
(may i just add she was way to happy for such a crappy day!)
"NO, i lost the baby, i had m/c."
"oh, i'm truly sorry, have a great weekend!" click
Now i'm in tears because i had finally gotten over obssessing how far along i would have been, now i know again where i would be!
Give or take 27 weeks, where if i were to go into labour, my baby would have a good chance of surviving.
God i hate this...i just fucking hate this never ending roller coaster.
i hate this i hate this so much
2 months ago
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Vivian - I had something simliar happen to me this week. I logged into babycenter.com (to check on a due date for a friend).
Well, I must have signed up for a user name.
So, right there it said "Almost half way there, you are 19 weeks pregnant.
It was like a smack in the face.
Hopefully this cycle will be the winning one!
Vivian, I'm so sorry that you had to go through that!! Its awful to be reminded that way! :::HUGS:::
I'm sorry, Viv. Companies that sell info suck. I still receive delightful (not) reminders - formula, coupons, free family portraits, "congrats on your baby" crap. It all hurts and makes me angry too.
I tagged you on my blog. Hopefully you'll enjoy the brief moment of entertainment!
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