I found a brand new box of Answer OPKs at works for $5.00 and i bought them because i can't pass up a deal like that. i got home and tested and + super dark test line showed up. Which means I'm about to O and we have to get busy!
I'm really excited about this cycle don't ask me why its intuition i guess. Last night's dream also helped to get me in the right frame of mind.
I can't wait to tell Michael we are expecting again as soon as it happens!
I've never been one to believe in positive thinking, I'm more of prepare for the worst and hope for the best, but upon my mother's nagging of watching this movie, i think i may have to give it a shot. I have nothing to loose by trying.
| Ask | Know what you want and ask the universe for it. | This is where you need to get clear on what it is you want to create and visualise what you want as being as 'real' as possible. |
| Believe† | Feel and behave as if the object of your desire is on its way. | Focus your thoughts and your language on what it is you want to attract. You want to feel the feeling of really 'knowing' that what you desire is on its way to you, even if you have to trick yourself into believing it – do it. |
| Receive | Be open to receiving it. | Pay attention to your intuitive messages, synchronicities, signs from the Universe to help you along the way as assurance you are on the 'right' path. As you align yourself with the Universe and open yourself up to receiving, the very thing you are wanting to manifest will show up. |
Louis Mulkey
The most touching story I have seen in a long time.
Prediction: There will be a movie about this man some day.
What a hero! its about 15 minutes long but man what a story!
Click on his name above.
Thanks Kekis i actually like doing these thing, my life can be boring so i have to find excuses to post here!
The rules of the game get posted at the beginning. Each player answers the questions about themselves. At the end of the post, the player then tag people and posts their names, then go to their blogs and leaves them a comment, letting them know they’ve been tagged and asking them to read your blog.
Soo here we go
1. What was I doing ten years ago? Well i was 19, woah seems so long ago, iI was living in Costa Rica, had just gotten engaged. Had my own house and was living well, i worked in a sportsbook that paid in Dollars not the national coin so i made a substantial salary compared to other people not in sportsbooks. I Was happy and carefree. I lived to live and have fun and travel. Those were good times, but i wouldn't change what i have now for that. I'm fulfilled now.
2. Five things on my to do list for today: Laundry, vacuum the LR, do my hair color (before I O) go grocery shopping... again, leave dinner ready for Michael since i get home from school around 9pm
3. Snacks I enjoy right now: since my pregnancy i have been craving ice cream so now i stock it in the fridge always. yodels, pound cake with vanilla ice cream on top, root beer floats, marshmallows cover in condensed milk and sprinkled with shredded coconut.
4. Things I would do if I were a billionaire: pay of our debts, buy a house, put money away for Darren's college, help out both our families. Travel.
5. Places I have lived: Costa Rica, new Jersey, New York
6. People I want to know more about: michelle lee, k-tell, amanda, rachi
its so funny how those of us in this club called TTC do so many strange things to help aid in getting pregnant and I'm not talking just fertility meds from the doctor. I'm talking about natural things to get your CM to become more productive, timing sex so its just right, taking cold medication to create EWCM and so on and so forth.
Last cycle i remembered i had bought instead cups which are meant to collect AF and had read on Fertility friend how some women have been using them to keep sperm closer to your cervix and still be bale to move around and not have leakage.
So i decide to try them, can i just say WOW i am impressed. I had no leakage and in theory it would make sense that it would aid in helping TTC since it keeps the lil guys closer where they have to be.
Tkae a look at their site and you'll see what i mean
The first link is what it is inteaded for originally
http://www.softcup.com/product/video.php
the second is for aid in TTC
http://www.early-pregnancy-tests.com/softcup.html
So sex week started officially yesterday and my night table looks like a pharmacy, i have a big container of Iced green tea, mucinex 12 hours pills, Pre-seed, instead cups and a gallon of water.
I'm off to buy pineapple and yogurt for my smoothies later in the week and i will start the OPK's today to see if maybe O moved up since i took clomid CD3-7 this cycle.
Call me crazy and I'll probably beat myself up for this later but i have a good feeling about this cycle. I hope we get our BFP, just in time for our anniversary and more importantly i hope it sticks because this is our last round of Clomid, and although my problem isn't getting pregnant at this point I still feel like clomid helps my O be stronger.
Keep us in your prayers that it works because if it doesn't next cycle we are on our own.
I honestly thought i was doing ok with the whole m/c thing and finally being able to let go where i would have been in terms of how many weeks pg.
That was until this afternoon, my cell phone rang with a number i didn't recognize but it wasn't 800 so i picked up. It was a place called Peek-a-womb, they do 3D u/s and can tell you your baby's sex if you want. I thought it would be a great anivversary gift to MH to see his baby. Well here is how the conversation went.
"Hi, I'd like to confirm your 3D u/s for this saturday at 11am to find out your baby's gender."
"uhmm no i called your office on my way to my D&C to cancel back in Feb"
"i'm sorry how do you mean? you won't make it then? would you like to re-schedule?"
(may i just add she was way to happy for such a crappy day!)
"NO, i lost the baby, i had m/c."
"oh, i'm truly sorry, have a great weekend!" click
Now i'm in tears because i had finally gotten over obssessing how far along i would have been, now i know again where i would be!
Give or take 27 weeks, where if i were to go into labour, my baby would have a good chance of surviving.
God i hate this...i just fucking hate this never ending roller coaster.
i hate this i hate this so much
not much to report on the home front, Michael and I are still really sick, basically just dealing with it.
I started school last night and i love my new professor, he is very laid back, teaches alot, but is funny so it keeps the #hour class entertaining. Another great thing is the book he uses i have already so i don't have to spend $70 bad thing...i can't find it. I know i have it because i remember putting it in the bookcase shortly before we moved, but now its MIA so i'm hoping its downstairs or if not the in storage. Otherwise i'm going to be out$70 which would really suck!
I also started clomid last night 100mg CD3-7, in theory days 3-7 of Clomid lead to more follicles and fewer side effects on the lining and the mucus. Days 5-9 lead to better development of just a few follicles. It seems to make a difference for some women and does not make any difference in others. Little conclusive research on the issue exists.
Basically Your brain, will start decreasing the amount of FSH it produces just after day 3 (from AF start) to squeeze out the "strongest" follicle out. Remember, Clomid makes your brain produce more FSH, so the logic goes as follows... If you give the clomid on day 5, the follicles have already gone through some sort of "brain FSH starvation" so that one follicle has already been weeded out of the bunch. But if you give it on day 3, you not only minimize the FSH starvation that the brain is producing, but you may also be able to pluck out two follicles... TWINS!!!!
I think the more we talk about it the more i think we want that. I honestly at this point don't care if we get 8 or 1 as long as it makes it to 40 weeks and comes out kicking and screaming, even if I'm in labour for 48 hours or more, if i have the worst m/s ever and tack on whatever else you want. I just want us to have a baby and for it to be healthy and safe. is that serious;y too much to ask?
missed m/c ~ D&C
Ectopic ~ Emergency Lap surgery
missed m/c ~ D&C~ trisomy 16
blighted ovum
with us for 4wks ~ chemical 
with us for 5wks 3d ~ missed m/c ~ D&C 
